The moment you stop waiting to be saved is the moment you begin to live with intent.

Every negative event carries within it the possibility of transformation. It rarely feels that way when you are in the middle of it. A failure at work, the end of a relationship, a health scare. These moments feel like endings, but if you stay with them long enough, they can open into something else — a new direction, a different way of living, an energy you didn’t know you had.

The Greek word crisis originally meant a point of decision. A turning. That is what the darker moments in life really are. Not final judgments but thresholds. The question is never whether they will happen — they always do — but whether you will be able to meet them with enough faith to step through to the other side.

Faith here doesn’t have to mean religion. It can mean trust in life itself. Trust that there are forces larger than your own limited perspective at work, shaping events in ways you can’t yet see. Without that kind of trust, life can feel brittle and hopeless. With it, even suffering takes on a kind of meaning.

Viktor Frankl, imprisoned in Auschwitz during the Second World War, gave one of the most striking examples of this. In Man’s Search for Meaning, he recalls a rumour spreading through the camp in 1944: the Allies would arrive to liberate them by Christmas. Prisoners pinned their hope on that promise. But Christmas came and went, and liberation was still months away. Frankl, who was forced to work as a camp doctor, recorded that more prisoners died between Christmas and New Year’s than at any other point. They had lost hope, and with it, the will to survive.

What this shows us is profound. By seeking external rescue, the prisoners left themselves exposed to despair when the promise was broken. Hope that depends only on outside forces is fragile. Frankl endured because he turned inward. He developed inner tools that allowed him to carry on regardless of what was happening outside the camp gates. He discovered that the only true freedom left to him was his choice of attitude.

This lesson matters today. When we rely on external validation, we set ourselves up for disappointment. The job title, the pay rise, the social approval, the imagined rescue — these can never be stable enough to carry us. Looking outside makes us dependent, and that dependency often slides into depression when the world does not deliver. The work is to build the inner posture: to cultivate confidence in our own thoughts, faith in our own process, energy drawn from within.

So the next time life turns against you, remember that the opportunity is hidden inside the negative. Looking outward for rescue will leave you empty. But working inward, and building faith in yourself, will give you strength not just to endure but to change the world around you.

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Try this

Here’s a tool I’ve learned that can help transform low energy into forward momentum.

Begin by feeling the heavy, demoralised state that comes when you are depressed. Don’t run from it — focus on it. Then tell yourself you are going to change that feeling into something else. Above your head, imagine a powerful flow of energy, like a jet stream.

Now picture yourself taking a specific action that represents forward motion in your life. It could be a risk you’ve avoided, or a daily discipline — writing, exercising, meditating. Place this action in that jet stream above your head.

Now rise. Feel yourself fly straight up into that picture by sensing the act of doing it. Nothing else matters except taking this step. As you rise, let the world fall away. Enter the image. Once inside, tell yourself you have a purpose. Feel the surge of energy as determination takes root. This is what momentum feels like. This is what it feels like to move forward.

What happens to us in life may not be our fault, but how we think about it is our responsibility

It’s 5:14am in Dubai when I hear it most clearly. The city is still. I walk into the kitchen, empty but filled with the smell of freshly ground coffee. The fridge hums. This past week, the rhythm of my mornings has been shaped by notes exchanged across opposite time zones with a man living in an impossible situation.

The tone is always steady. No drama. No self-pity. Just facts: the small space, the routine of prison, the laps run in a yard bordered by a wall on one side and chain-link on the other. What is sought is simple - tools for the mind, ways to stop the space from shrinking and a connection with the outside world.

I offer breathing exercises. Five minutes. Eyes soft. Counting inhales. Stretching exhales. Then body scanning. I send across a book - Letting Go by David Hawkins. The good book. My bible. The most important book I’ve ever read. More than a levelling tool, it’s the foundation of how I coach. The core idea - that surrender is power, not weakness - sits behind almost every conversation I have with a client, and it feels never more relevant than in this situation.

This connection comes from my work with the Last Prisoner Project. Founded in 2019, In Denver Colorado. It is a nonpartisan organisation dedicated to ending the injustice of cannabis criminalisation in America. They take on cases one by one: clearing records, securing releases, and supporting people as they re-enter life. Their position is simple - if you can legally profit from cannabis, no one should remain behind bars for it.

Through them I offer counsel and presence to inmates - men in need of someone to talk to and exchange with. Small increments of time, through pre-arranged Zoom calls, hand written notes and emails, become a connection to the outside world. Even these briefest of communications carry weight: reminders that they are not forgotten, that their lives are still important, that people care and are fighting their corner.

The sentences are brutal. The crimes are not - often only possession. The world outside has changed beyond recognition for those incarcerated, yet their days repeat within narrow strips of concrete and wire. And still, even there, presence can be found.

This week I was sent a note by one of my men, that touched me deeply. It described a run in a prison yard somewhere deep in Mississippi. After our work on holding space, on learning to sit and meditate in small increments of time, this man described in beautiful detail how his soundscape suddenly came alive: the wind combing through a fringe of grass, two birds — one with a high, urgent call, the other slow and low. Feet finding rhythm. A guard’s radio crackling, then fading behind the birds. The yard seemed wider, not because the fences moved, but because attention did. It was a moment of beauty, caught inside a cage. To me a deeply poetic reminder of how much we overlook in our free lives.

This morning, my own practice felt different. The same kitchen. The same smell of coffee. I closed my eyes and noticed the faint whistle of the air-conditioning, the sharp scent of coffee, the distant tyres on tarmac. Ordinary sounds, alive when you catch them. But today, they carried more weight. More gratitude.

Progress lives in these small, stubborn acts of noticing. In a yard between concrete and wire. In the half-light of a quiet Dubai morning. And in the choice we all have — to pay attention, to see the beauty, and never take our freedom for granted.

Outside the window, a myna calls. I really listen, pour the coffee, press record, and talk.

Big Love 
Chris

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“Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.” 
Viktor Frankl. Neurologist and Holocaust Survivor.

Joy is not lost. It’s just waiting for you to feel again

It’s a phrase I hear too often. “I’m OK.”

Those words hide more than they reveal. A client sits opposite me, smiling politely, telling me they’re “OK, broadly speaking” — and then, after a pause, admitting they feel like they’re slowly dying in front of their children’s eyes. Outwardly, everything appears intact: the career, the marriage, the stability. Inside, there’s only numbness.

This state has a name: anhedonia. The inability to feel joy. Food becomes bland. Music loses its pull. Achievements feel hollow. Family moments slip into duty. It isn’t sadness; sadness has texture. This is the absence of feeling itself.

What often sits underneath anhedonia is something called high-functioning depression. It doesn’t look like the stereotype. You still get out of bed. You go to work. You pay the bills. You show up for family. From the outside, you look fine — more than fine, maybe even enviable. But inside, there’s a slow erosion. A quiet despair. The problem is, because you’re still functioning, you may not realise you’re suffering at all. You dismiss the emptiness as a rough patch, a lack of motivation, just being tired. Meanwhile the days stack up, drained of colour.

And the reflex of our culture is to medicate. Antidepressants are prescribed at record pace. They can steady the floor, yes. But they also flatten everything else. The highs are blunted with the lows. Joy gets dulled along with despair. Life turns into management. Existence without depth.

But the truth few want to face: pain is not the enemy. As the Buddha said, life is pain. To deny pain is to deny life. It’s precisely through allowing ourselves to feel discomfort that joy becomes possible. You cannot numb selectively. When you mute suffering, you mute wonder. When you avoid pain, you also shut yourself off from joy.

The way back isn’t found in escape. It’s found in embodiment. Movement is the most direct route we have to reawaken feeling. Physical exertion — sweat, breath, heartbeat — reactivates the dopamine and serotonin pathways that anhedonia shuts down. When the body moves, it drags the mind with it. You remember you’re alive, not in theory but in the pulse of your veins.

One client told me, “When I sit still, I feel myself dying. When I move, I start to feel again.” That is the work. Not to float above suffering, but to step into it — to use the friction of pain as proof of life, and as the very condition that allows joy to return.

If you’re telling yourself you’re “OK, broadly speaking,” you’re not. That phrase is a mask. The deeper question is: are you willing to feel again? Not just the light, but the dark? Because you cannot reclaim joy without letting pain move through you.

This is where I can help. My work is about creating the structure and accountability to confront what you’ve been avoiding — to move, to feel, and to rediscover joy in the process of being fully alive.

If this speaks to you, don’t wait. Reach out. Together we’ll do the work that brings you back to yourself.

Big love. Chris

PS: Don’t hide from pain. It’s precisely by facing it — by choosing to move through it — that we return to feeling. And in feeling, we remember what it is to be fully alive.

In running, pain is innevitable. Suffering is optional. In life it’s the same

At 3am the alarm light cuts through the dark.

The apartment is dead quiet, the city still. I shoulder my kit bag packed with gels and hydration, and take my first steps towards the desert silence.

Saturday was my first trail run in the Dubai mountains. I’ve been running for over a decade, but this was different. Over an hour away the mountains waited, rugged and stony, dust settling into the air like a veil. The terrain felt almost Martian—red rock, alien dust, a landscape both hostile and beautiful. Light lifted fast. Within minutes the sky held a grainy wash, like a visionary photograph on Kodak film—edges raw, tones honest, the world stripped of filters. its 6am, and a 90 minute drive from The Palm, a small group of trail runners greeted me with warmth and friendly smiles, led by running coach Lee Hill of UltraPerformance. They welcomed me into a tight-knit circle of athletes, each ready to push themselves in the name of growth and improvement. 

The first strides were awkward. Ankles stiff, breath high, the mind eager to negotiate. But the trail took hold. Gravel scattered, rhythm found its way, the wadi drew me forward. Haruki Murakami’s words landed again: pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. The climbs were sharp, the stones cut into balance, my lungs pulled for air. Every step asked more than the road ever had, yet something in me unknotted. The body carried the strife, the mind found its release.

What do I think about when I’m running? I’m not really sure. In the 50-degree evening heat it’s sometimes the thought—will my heart give in? Or maybe—this is making my heart stronger. When I’m sad, I think about the sadness itself, why it weighs so heavy. When I’m happy, the joy pulses through me like voltage. But mostly, I let thoughts drift. I see them as clouds—passing, reshaping, breaking apart. I imagine myself as the sky—constant, blue, vast—while the clouds come and go. Running makes that possible. To hold stillness inside motion.

And this is what movement really is: not a performance, not a diary entry to offset the hours of sitting, but a way of living. The mistake is to treat exercise like a box to tick. One hour against the tide of stillness. It doesn’t work. The body wants rhythm. It wants friction folded into the day. Walks between calls, stairs without thought, groceries carried, not wheeled. Honest movement.

Mood follows motion. Stillness feeds rumination, shallow breath, poor sleep. Movement clears the static and makes space between stimulus and response. Shoulders settle, the heart steadies, choices feel lighter. You don’t need to have faith in it. You only need to start.

Anchor the day with three non-negotiables: ten minutes outdoors at dawn, ten slow squats while the kettle boils, five minutes of mobility before bed. Add strength you can carry—push, pull, hinge, squat, carry—two or three short sessions that leave you capable, not broken. Close the day with breath: four in, six out, five minutes before sleep. Call it nervous system hygiene.

None of this is grand. It is simple, repeated. Rhythm beats drama. The mountains reminded me of this—the trail is not conquered, it is lived through, one step after another, clouds drifting, sky unshaken.

Back on the ridge, the sun was up, gold brushing the desert. Heat built, dust lifted with each strike of the foot. It was painful, the hardest run I’ve done in years. And yet it felt integral, like something had shifted. Running was once the most painful, hardest thing I had ever done. Now it has become part of my day like breathing or eating. Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. The desert trail—otherworldly as Mars—taught me this again. Movement heals, not by miracle, but by practice.

This week, move before you overthink. Walk before you scroll. Breathe before you argue. Choose friction over comfort. Build a rhythm you can carry into the week when it inevitably tests you.

Big love Chris.

​P.S. If you want structure, I can help design a month with you: clear goals, a rhythm of anchors, strength and breath, all shaped around your real calendar so it stands up to ordinary chaos. 

A Beautiful Brotherhood

How modern men are finding strength through connection, not silence one workout at a time.

A pink seam splits the Gulf horizon above Dubai’s Kite Beach. Fifty men are already assembled, lined up behind a start line roughly scratched into the sand, sweat already forming before the first whistle blows. It's 6am on Father's Day, and instead of sleeping in, we’ve come to test each other—to see what we’re made of, together.

Today at Menathon We’re pushing back against a crisis in men’s mental health—one session, one rep, one connection at a time. This is therapy—through fitness. It’s fireman carries, dead man drags, and broad jumps through burning quads and unforgiving sand dunes, all sandwiched between relentless 600m runs, as the early morning temperature rises to 97 degrees. For 50 minutes straight, there’s nowhere to hide, no one coasting, no music to push you on—just grit, breath, gnarly cries of pain and the voice in your head screaming at you to conquer or obey.

But beneath the chaos, something deeper is happening: it’s not just about the workout. This is men showing up to suffer side by side, to connect through challenge, to build respect through effort. Strangers become teammates, teammates become brothers. And no one will leave the beach the same.

Why? Because this is how men reconnect in moments of play. It's how we come together, shoulder to shoulder, and build the trust needed to start healing. Physical challenge creates the space for emotional release—this morning there is no therapy room required.

The philosopher Plato once said he was most surprised by this:

“A man becomes bored in childhood and hurries to grow up. Then he longs for childhood again. He loses his health to make money, then spends money to get his health back. Anxious for tomorrow, he forgets today. And so he lives neither for today nor tomorrow. He lives as if he will never die, and dies as though he never lived.”

The quiet epidemic

Male suicide in England and Wales rose last year to 17.4 deaths per 100,000—the highest rate since 1999. A Movember-backed survey places a quarter of British men in the “no close friends” column, a friendship deficit that corrodes everything from immune strength to life expectancy. Men are twice as likely to die of a broken heart. According to a new study in The Journal of the American Heart Association, men are twice as likely as women to die of takotsubo cardiomyopathy, also known as “broken heart syndrome.” Isolation, neuroscientists remind us, is less an emotion than a biological threat state: cortisol stays high, inflammation smoulders, and the heart never powers down. Without connection, we cannot thrive. We are living through not just a crisis of mental health—it’s a demographic drifting toward loneliness, silence, and solitude. It makes me ask: why do we, as men, struggle so much to ask for love?

Where did the love go

The old gathering grounds—factory floors, office canteens, pubs and social clubs, five-a-side leagues, quiz nights, city clubs and music venues—have been quietly dismantled by the iOS revolution. Remote work lengthened the day yet shortened its human seams; a shift once marked by a pint at the bar now ends with a browser tab closing in an empty bedsit kitchen.

Then #MeToo arrived, overdue light flooded dark corners, yet many ordinary men were left guessing where healthy courtship ends and mis-step begins. In parallel, something darker began playing out in gyms across the world. TikTok videos started appearing of young men at the squat rack or bench press, filmed mid-workout by strangers—often women—who claimed their presence was "creepy" or "predatory," then shared the content online. One viral clip even featured a user counting "stares" as evidence, despite the footage showing little more than incidental glances. As reported in a 2023 article by The Independent, these posts didn’t emerge to expose wrongdoing; they confirmed a harsher narrative: that simply being male can be suspicious. As the videos spread, many young men found themselves too anxious to smile, wave, strike up a conversation, or even return to the gym—terrified of being seen.

Surveys show six in ten male managers now feel uneasy about one-to-one time with female colleagues. Spontaneity retreated; caution took its place. Men stopped putting themselves out there in fear of putting themselves in the firing line.

Into that vacuum strode the algorithm. A 2024 study found fresh male accounts on TikTok and YouTube Shorts piped toward misogynistic or “male-supremacist” clips within twenty-three minutes. Feeds shout, nuance stalls, and “toxic masculinity” becomes a catch-all accusation. Unsure whether drive, risk-taking—even laughter at the wrong joke—might tag them as dangerous, many men armoured up. Love didn’t die; it was crowded out by economic drift, cultural caution and algorithmic theatre.

Connection outperforms pills

A blister-pack of SSRIs can mute dread, but it cannot lace your trainers or meet your gaze at dawn. What’s happening now is more hopeful than any prescription. Across the country, grassroots brotherhoods are rising—men quietly reclaiming connection by showing up, side by side, at dawn. These are not group therapy clichés or choreographed bonding rituals; they’re real, unfiltered communities built on movement, silence, sweat and trust. New medicine lives here, in parks, halls and beach fronts, where presence is enough and no one is left to carry the weight alone.

On Monday nights Andy’s Man Club fills more than 240 rooms, drawing thousands for brew-and-biscuit honesty circles many credit with saving their life. All week the hum of saws and banter drifts from over a thousand Men’s Sheds, where sawdust and sarcasm dissolve loneliness for older blokes who once thought conversation was for someone else.

Walk-and-talk movements spread faster than gossip. Men Walking & Talking grew from a single stroll in Telford to forty weekly walks across seventeen counties, offering a free, side-by-side confessional powered by fresh air and stubborn hope. Parkrun, usually content with stopwatches and barcodes, has turned this year’s Men’s Health Week into a rallying cry: show up shoulder to shoulder, run or stroll, but don’t stay silent. Across the Atlantic, F3 Nation plants thousands of free pre-dawn workouts in fourteen countries, every session closing with a “circle of trust” where one man speaks and the rest stand guard.

Shared effort, shared silence, a hand on your back when the hill bites—this chemistry rewires men’s hearts as surely as any sertraline. For the last decade I’ve found this out firsthand. These aren’t just events, they’re emotional defibrillators. Strangers become mates, mates become brothers, and the hard truth lands softly: we were never meant to go it alone.

Send one save one

So men in the know—this is my appeal to you: reach out today, right now. A single line—“ A 7pm Walk on the Mile, no agenda?” (with Men of the Mile)—can tip a domino you might never see fall. Repeat weekly. And to those alone in isolation: connection is like a muscle—rehearsal, not revelation, makes it strong. Begin with breath. Five quiet minutes cue the vagus nerve to stand down, making it easier to ask for help. Open up. Seek out the groups already gathering. Look for the ones throwing weight, walking miles, holding space. These men aren't waiting for permission—they're creating their own medicine, in real time, together. Honesty is honourable. Get outside and stand shoulder to shoulder with brothers.

This is how we win

The real masculine renaissance is traced in dawn footprints and post-run hugs, not hashtags. It’s men learning—with honesty, imperfectly—to hold time for one another, to say: I’m here for you, with a spare water bottle and an unhurried ear.

So bring light to someone’s darkness—and extend the hand of love. Get out and Play together, put the work in and reap the rewards of connection earned through sweat, silence and showing up for each other when it matters most.

As my mate Tim wrote in a post after our Father’s Day session: Boys want attention. Men seek respect. Legends don’t give a fuck.